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feelings within…..

s15ger — Tue, 24 Mar 2009 18:07:08 +0000

mixed feelings within my heart….alot of feelings cant be expressed…recently alot of thing happened which brought me back to my memories….first is Jas’ incident which is a repeat of my history. the miserable state Jas is in remind me of my miseries and him….Ch 55 show played another part, the same part that was showing when we broke up. really sad….lastly is because i happened to flip the newspaper and saw his restaurant promo over the whole page. he indeed become more successful than before. maybe without a troublesome relationship, he is able to exceed in every aspect, especially career. candy talked to me about him too. candy told me that they confronted him about the incident, but from what was heard, he denied.

the state jas is in now, really made me feel like i was her now. really feel kinda of weird. why man can be so heartless? what happened to promises made during the days when they are together. if you really love the person, why will you give up so easily. anyway after so much thing happened, i told myself and friends around me to relax when it come to relationship. if it meant to be yours, no matter what, it will still belong to you…no point pursuiting to what you insist.

Wondering how is lewis now? didnt managed to get in touch after he left for USA on last sat….is it that we got no fate, that is why we always didnt manage to meet each other online….i missed him…only when the person left you then you realised the importance of the person. Being simple is a beauty. i preceived this is the type of life i should live with. To be with a person that both mutually like each others, without much challenging stances that both got to withstand. faithfulness is what i expect in a relationship and i think it is simple as long as both person wish to sustain a relationship and give each other committment….

anyway i hope life will go smoothly for me and in time to come by after 2 years, if our relationship is able to withstand all sorts of obstacles, i think he is the one for me already.

after so long, i finally realised quiet and simple life is what i mostly look forward to. why did i failed to realised that in the past and club n club. clubbing is so meaningless and complicated, it complcated my life completely. indirectly giving me more hurts, letting me meet wrong persons and making wrong decisions at all times. i hate it.my life is now just everyday at work, play shares, at night stay home surf net, do my website, build up my business and career. life is so fulfilling….earning as much money as possible in the next two years to build up a home i really look forward to…………..

I SINCERELY PRAY MYSELF THAT I WILL LIVE HAPPILY EVERYDAY……

wow….

s15ger — Wed, 18 Mar 2009 16:20:01 +0000

more than half a year din blog….i found this web account back…i am amazed when i read back the past thing i wrote. i cant believe myself for once i was so abnormally obessessed in a person…ha ha….pretty silly once recalled…hee hee…no more stupid and silly ger again…..

Yeeeee……………….GER is so SILLY……………………..in the past , suffering for a guy who doesnt deserve it!!!!!!!!!

Back to Blogging….

s15ger — Wed, 18 Mar 2009 16:09:29 +0000

it’ve been so long since i last blog….sudden interest drew me back to writting…i must admit that recently i am living a ‘Normal’ life. Finally i felt myself being reborn. Thanks god everything is over and back to normal.

for once i was so hurt and vulnerable in a relationship, but now i am reborn. living a single happy life. everyday filled with passion towards work and life. having positive attitude towards everything….i believed this is the essence to happy living…..

New resolution for the year…includes ………..uncountable thing…but most important is to build up by career. for the last half a year, i have been staying in a ‘ too easy’ working environment. times is bad and thing had changed. I am back to action. My engine start running now….enthu n passion….At the same time, doing up my own biz bit by bit. Hardwork and luck count a part in success. i believed one day, i will b able to achieve what i wan.

The thing that i felt most proud of myself is the person who i felt that i once cant live without finally had disappear from my world. sometimes i dont even remember who ‘that’ person is….ha ha….god is at least fair to me….i am able to live a new life….fate had decide everything for me.no more forcing or pushing thing beyond control…..yeah…

GER GER is living a very BUSY BUSY life now….though busy yet fulfilling……